On not being broken

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I didn't know where the words 'You are not broken' had come from. At the beginning of my practice I'd set my intention as figuring out a way in to writing a particularly difficult article on a charismatic yogi who, as Walt Whitman would have said, 'contained multitudes'

But maybe 10 minutes into moving and stretching the words 'You are not broken' surfaced in my mind. I didn't ask for them but I knew that the rest of my practice was going to be about figuring out what they meant.

I realised right away that the words were connected to the clicks and twinges that always punctuate the first few minutes of my practice. Like all of us I'm sure, I have war wounds from my life before yoga that I made worse when I pushed myself too hard in my first years of practicing.

Some part of me was telling me that, in spite of these aches and pains, my essence was not broken. What makes me me, the part of me - of all of us - that exists at a level deeper than our physical bodies was whole and always would be.

I can use this, I thought. I'll make a cute, colourful Instagram post using my Wordswag app. But when I was floating in savasana, I realised 'You are not broken' meant something even more profound.

Learning from rejection

When you write for a living, you face rejection all the time. And the reasons why your work is rejected are often so subjective that you couldn't overcome them even if you wanted to.

There several possible responses to this kind of rejection. The first is, of course, 'f*ck off, you don't know what you're talking about'. The second is to consider the reasons why your work has been rejected, accept that whoever was doing the rejection had a point and learn. 

I've found that the most positive way to handle my writing being rejected is to move through the first two responses to the point where I remember that everything I write is somehow a manifestation of me.

And I am not broken.

Even if we're not talking about writing, those words offer a necessary lesson. Rejection is part of life so there's no point lashing out at whoever or whatever doesn't want to play with you. It's also a waste of time bending over backwards to be accepted when it just ain't going to happen.

The only sane thing to do is remember who you are, like yourself and listen to what your deeper you is trying to tell you.

Yoga allows my inner voice to speak and has taught me to listen.

David Holzer